Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I see the light....

at the end of the tunnel. This post is going to be a bit different from my other posts, but I feel that I need to write it. Some of it is a bit personal....maybe shouldn't be posted for everyone to see, but I don't care. I see the light at the end of the tunnel because my husband is 15 credits away from graduating. It seems like a miracle with all of the things that we've gone through, and I feel so grateful to my Father in Heaven for providing this miracle for us. There have been so many times in our almost 6 years of marriage (on Friday!!!) that I have had to sit back and say, "How in the world are we going to do this?" The only possible conclusion that I can come up with is that the Lord has helped us through it all. I don't think this would be possible without Him. Here are a few examples:

When Scott and I were first married, he had a lot of debt from starting an online business. I remember thinking when we were engaged, 'How are we ever going to pay this off?' It stressed me out a lot. Both of us worked full time after we were married and I went to school full time as well. I felt worn out a lot, but I passed all of my classes. Two years later......SURPRISE......I got pregnant with Hannah. We were excited, but I also had the same thoughts. 'How am I going to finish school, pay off our debt, and be a mother (and I desperately wanted to be a stay at home mother). I quit work right before Hannah was born. It scared me to do so, but I knew that that was what I wanted most. After she came into the world, I was able to finish school a year later with ease and then a little after that, we paid off ALL of our debt. I felt so blessed and knew that it was almost impossible for us to get through these things, but we did it. So finally, I was done with school and Scott finally got into BYU, so now it was his turn to focus on school. Then we felt it was time to have another baby and......SURPRISE.....it's twins. Oh my gosh! 'How are we going to take care of twins, especially while my husband is still in school?' Things just seemed to work out for us, and I feel like it was almost better having my husband in school because he was able to be home with me more than he would with an 8am-5pm job. I was worried about our living arrangements too, but we found a 3 bedroom apartment that fit our price range and moved into it 3 days before Bailey and Brynn came into the world. The girls have been in this world 9 months today, and things have worked out nicely. We've been able to take care of them and give them a good home, despite the fact that there are days I want to pull out all my hair and feel like I'm going insane. We were blessed with these three beautiful children and I feel so lucky to have them in my life. I also feel so lucky to have my husband. He worked so hard this semester, staying up all hours of the night to do well and even got himself really sick with stress during finals because he wanted to do well. I am so happy that he is a semester and a half away from finally graduating. We've both been going to college off and on for almost 9 years now, and we've lived here for 6 of those years. I'm more than ready to move on with my life to bigger and better things (and I know Scott is ready too)! Like I said, though, all of this would not have been possible without our Father in Heaven constantly answering our prayers. Now...onto finding a good job and a great place to live!!!



P.S. In honor of the girls' nine month birthday, here are a couple of pictures.

Bailey's hair after a nap....


Brynn's hair after a nap....

Also, Brynn is finally sitting up! It makes things a lot easier. I don't think either one will be crawling for awhile, though. I'm going to have to develop a third eye in the back of my head when that happens, so I'm okay with it for now. Bailey also got her first two teeth this week. They're already growing up faster than I'd like them to.

5 comments:

Jen said...

Great post, Maran! It's awesome that you can look back and see all of the ways you've been blessed. It's amazing how things work out well when you are seeking to do His will. We are looking back over the last six months and seeing how much we have been blessed.

I'm excited to see where you guys end up.

Love Bailey and Brynn's nap hair.

Mom said...

I forgot to say "Happy Anniversary!"

Donna said...

Okay, I am having a difficult time leaving comments on here. For some reason my comments don't always show up. So, I will attempt to repeat my first comment which got deleted;
I am very proud of you Scott for working so hard on your schooling and job and everything else you do. We love you. And Maran, you are a wonderful mother. It has to be so hard right now for you with three little ones at home. But they are loved and well taken care of and happy.
Brynn and Bailey look adorable sitting together for the first time in a photo. They will be crawling before you are ready! And show us the sweet little new baby teeth :)
Love yas.

Jon, Teresa and Madison said...

Hooray! Brynn sits up now. I bet it makes feeding her a lot easier. I love Bailey's face in that last picture. They're so adorable.

RachelBarker said...

Heavenly Father does listen, that's for sure! Your little girls are adorable and I know you are a fantastic mom & wife! Keep it going :)